Today was the best day ever!! :D I got to share the Love of God with someone over facebook, shared the gospel with him. God gave me all these bible verses and he asked questions that I used to ask myself so it was so awesome that I could answer them...well that God have me the answers for them. haha God is just awesome! I really want him to use me in huge ways this year, where ever I may end up in the summer, I know that I will be doing God's will and it will be amazing! I really hope that I will let God continue to work in my life, I believe that he always is. Growing me and seeking a deeper relationship with me! :) If you have never shared the Love of God with anyone, pray about it, ask God to give you strength and maybe there will be an opening for you to talk with someone, which would be awesomely sweeet!!! :) I love God's peace, it is so amazing! <3

Wow man this weekend God has stretched me like no other. Emily Aho gave this amazing talk and im pretty sure i cried through the whole thing and it was a really hard day for me. I was so sick of being told what to do and what to do with my life. I applied to Lake Ellen and I was going to raise support for the summer. But then my mom emails me and tells me of this great oppurtunity for the summer, an internship that I an for sure get. As a police cadet for the county. This makes me feel at peace but my other choice i felt like I was at peace with, but my parents were not on board. So I guess that was a way of God saying no this is not for you. I feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions and I dont know how to do this. I am finding myself saying God, I trust you all the way, but then I think how much am I really trusting him? I need to be full out...and I just feel like I am not. God needs to be the center of all my thoughts. I this I would get to be a light for my family, go to church with my family, and show the Love of God to them! I believe that this is where God wants me. This honestly scares the crap out of me...and I could not tell you why. I do not understand why I cant seem to give everything to God. Why is that so hard, if I call myself a Christian then I should set an example and trust the Lord...but why is this not happening. So this is my challenge this week to trust God and trust that I am doing his will...more or less seek his will! :)

whoooo God!!!

This week was really stressful for me and I was really upset and seemed to want to cry alot. I was working yesterday and a friend stopped by and said why are you upset? The person that created you, me, the snow outside, everything just wants to love you. WOW! right!! God just wants to love me and sometimes I dont want to even talk to the person who loves me. In bible study I talked about prayer and this really got me thinking if I am telling my girls to pray and communicate with God. Why am I not doing that, why do I complain and worry when God says, "dont worry about anything instead pray about anything." What! Why am I so worried and upset. As soon as I talked with God, my attitude seemed to grow more and more positive. Also I found out that there was this writing contest for this English department and I am choosing to write on a hero in the injustice world, I am going to write about my friends family who is helping with the sex slave trade and how God is really helping them. So I get to talk about God in a paper for a public University!! :D God opens awesome doors!!! YAY GOD!! Tell me how often do we worry and go straight to God? It is hard, but it should be the first thing. SO i am going to make it my first thing!! :) Love you alllll! whooo God!!!

So my talk last night went so WELL!! I was a little nervous but not really at all...it was so great just how God gave me peace about it! I just spoke what he gave me and i think it really hit people hard and is really going to challenge them and is already challenging them in their everyday walk with God. CHALLENGE: Ask God to make you weak and see just how powerful He is and just how amazing he can work if you allow him to. I really hope that this does happen. Then to give it a good kicker i showed a video,

http://vodpod.com/watch/1049649-how-he-loves-john-mark-mcmillan

check it out! It is so awesome and amazing how God worked through this weak man to do a great thing! I am really excited!!!

God is just so awesome!!!!!!!! :D <3 href="http://vodpod.com/watch/1049649-how-he-loves-john-mark-mcmillan">

So tonight I am speaking for the first time at Cru. I am feeling good about it but kind of really nervous! I really feel like God is telling me that someone really needs to hear this, I myself needed to hear it as well, so it was so wonderful being able to look up things are really dig deeper into Gods word! I am talking on Judges 6 and 7, how God uses weak people to do great things! I have had such an amazing week! Like I really cannot believe how much God is just being with me and showing me how much he loves it when I trust him...I love trusting him...but I find it really hard to do alot. But when I said okay God I totally trust you and I want what is your will!! AND he totally took over and my week has been wonderful and I have been learning so much in my classes for my major and really reassured that this is what I am going to do with my life! I love God and how we plan and he just laughs!! hahaha
I love you God! <3

God is really testing me this week with trusting him and doing his will. Some times my mind will just take over and totally forget that I should not be focusing so much on other things and really be eyes towards God! This is harder and harder once I find things that I want, such a boys. They walk in when I don't really want them to, when I really should be paying all of my attention on God and school. God created me to glorify Him and to worship Him and He deserves more than I could ever give him. I know that God has something planned big for me and just the point of trusting that he will provide for me and he knows what I am going to do in my life, where I am going to work, how I am going to survive, who I will marry if I do. So why do I worry when the future is in God's hands and so in the present. Worrying is something that God does not want us to do, it says in Philippians: instead of worrying about things pray about things and it will bring you peace. Just typing that makes me feel better! God had got it and has got me, i can trust Him! He loves me!! <3 Thanks God, I love you!!

If He performed miracles because He was God, then they would be unattainable for us. But if He did them as a man, I am responsible to pursue His lifes

Some people and I went out to peoples doors in the dorms and asked if we could take out there trash and some peoples responses were so awesome! Like why are you doing this? Just to serve you and tell you that God loves you! One person even asked if there were any good churches around here, it was so awesome to talk to them about God and just to serve people. Like who really wants to take out your trash anyway...thats like gross right...well Jesus was a servant and washed people feet. If He performed miracles because He was God, then they would be unattainable for us. But if He did them as a man, I am responsible to pursue His lifestyle. So why do no I not serve people as much as I should was really the challenge that I have been presented with over and over again. And to be perfectly honest i have no idea why. Why should i keep Gods love a secrect. Why am i not telling people about this awesome eternal life that they could be having with this awesome man! :) I feel like God gave me this huge heart for serving people but i just dont wanna do it...and i do not understand why. I should be loving to everyone and should care about people who do not know God. Yeah :)