Wow man this weekend God has stretched me like no other. Emily Aho gave this amazing talk and im pretty sure i cried through the whole thing and it was a really hard day for me. I was so sick of being told what to do and what to do with my life. I applied to Lake Ellen and I was going to raise support for the summer. But then my mom emails me and tells me of this great oppurtunity for the summer, an internship that I an for sure get. As a police cadet for the county. This makes me feel at peace but my other choice i felt like I was at peace with, but my parents were not on board. So I guess that was a way of God saying no this is not for you. I feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions and I dont know how to do this. I am finding myself saying God, I trust you all the way, but then I think how much am I really trusting him? I need to be full out...and I just feel like I am not. God needs to be the center of all my thoughts. I this I would get to be a light for my family, go to church with my family, and show the Love of God to them! I believe that this is where God wants me. This honestly scares the crap out of me...and I could not tell you why. I do not understand why I cant seem to give everything to God. Why is that so hard, if I call myself a Christian then I should set an example and trust the Lord...but why is this not happening. So this is my challenge this week to trust God and trust that I am doing his will...more or less seek his will! :)